unneccsary strikes

this strikes at TUT are realy starting to get on my nerves. people just strike because they think its a kind of some silly game, the just want to have fun while their future is just going down the drain

i am thirsty

I took it as an unquenchable thirst! The competition was tough; the pressure was high, looking at others with the sense of inferiority and scepticism. Boisterous acts, inhumanely lifestyles, and clandestine filling up that temple of darkness which everyone called my heart. Fun, extenuation of problem, defying the odds, rage, obliviousness, with question running around looking for answers there will never find. My mind was searching, searching and searching for the power and superiority. I walked, walked and walked through these different roads, yet the odyssey was for nothing. Is the burden yet to come? I ask myself, with my heart doing the thinking and my brains doing the pounding. All this years I struggled yet I travelled to the most famous place “nowhere”.

Am I still alive? I pinch myself…..yes “said my flesh, but my soul was ignorant, my eyes were blind and without doubt my brain was lobotomized. My soul is afraid of change, of the real world, of reality, my soul is afraid of the truth. I have walked many roads and I have passed through the right turn. Was I oblivious or was I ignorant? The questions remain unanswered. Stupidly and idiotically I searched and the answers were making my heels a sleigh. What am I doing wrong and what am I not doing right? I guess that’s the most stupid thing to ask. I am stupid…….am I? No! Cupid said. Before my next breath, his arrow was already through my heart.

My soul shook, my brains froze and my heart skipped a beat. Rebirth…..baptism, I couldn’t differentiate the two. For the millionth time, my grandmother was right. “Good things take time, but greater things happen all at once”. I saw his mercy; indeed he will never live his children in darkness. All those years I walked through those different roads, ignoring the three most precious roads, life, love and you. I sang the rhythm of life, the rhythm of love and I had no tune. I found you, I found my steps, I found my rhythm.” In the rhythm of life we find ourselves out of the tune, but as long as there are special people like you…, the melody plays on! For the first time, I spoke the truth; you smiled and swept me off my feet with that raspy voice.

You uplifted my spirit and took my breath away. Believe me it was the greatest experience known to man. I spoke a language that even I don’t understand. You took me to wonderland and to paradise I journeyed. You became the essence of my soul and with every bit of my limb I exalted you as my angel and in my ears the sons and daughters of light were playing earth’s lowliest and loudest tunes. I started believing in fairytales and everything that is believed to be a myth and what I am yet to discover. You made me to swim in the river of life. I posed so many questions that no man on earth could answer except for me.

I searched my vocabulary once again and it took be by surprise when I found that I was missing one little famous word. I became overexcited and I behaved like a child and yes you did not care. You did not care one bit. The little word was heavy, the heaviest weight in my heart and I had to glance and kneel down in order to spell it out. The word is precious and it had to be covered up with something, something true and believing. The word is love and I had to put it between you and I. for the first time in my life I finally spoke of love, I always thought that it is for the weak and stupid.  I held it in my heart and took it in my mouth and wherever I go I spoke of it and how precious you are. The word was between you and I when I said I love you. Yes I love you.

heal my broken heart

It is a normal feeling, why shouldn’t I be worried, when every step you take, takes you further and further away from me. The world is full of troubles, trickery, pain, deception and temptations, but not in my yard. I wonder why the fuck this whole bullshit is always on your plate. You want it all, that’s for sure. Is like you tend to curse my love and fuck up my life anytime you get the chance. If you do not understand how much I love you by now, you will never know what love is. My heart beats for you, and every time it pumps, it’s like a venomous thorn right in the temple of my soul.

I wish life was like a tape I could rewind and re- record. Why is your love so boisterous? Is it a play or a drama of some sort? If this is a game, I will play no more. I wish someday I will get the opportunity to finally lose a tear of joy when I think of you. I’m tired of this unsatisfying human degrading parasitic love of yours. I am willing to take a chance of losing you, preferably forever, before you take away the little pride that I have left.

They call you a sexy, beautiful chick, all of them. Even the closest soul to me spells it out to me. I say you are a bimbo, yes beautiful but unintelligent. You say you love me yet you take away every little joy that I work for. Sometimes I pinch myself in your presence wishing all this catastrophic were only a bad dream, a very bad dream. I subjected myself to a nightmare the first time I laid my eyes on you. I ask myself, why did cupid have to be so cruel? Why did god abandon me? Why the fuck did my ancestors forsake me?

I wish I could just defy the odds of gravity and fly away, to a place where my first grade teacher told me about, a place where every priest, true or fake, they talk about it. A very famous place written in the scriptures, yes that’s heaven. I do not know if it is the right way but I am prepared to do the inevitable. I will break this chain of our so called bond. Even the strongest chain has got a weak spot and I will find it come rain come sun shine.

You will torment yourself when the rain cloud gathers. The only reason you are in my heart is because of hatred and rage that I have towards you. You are one sick mother fucker. You pretend to be an angel when you are a demon sent straight from hell to end lives. I guess that’s one of the main reasons why you sleep with every guy who falls for your traps. Hopefully I will see the rainbow at the end of this heavy stormy rain of terror, there will be justice. The big guy upstairs will never leave his children in darkness.

For how long shall I kneel down to your empty threats? I like to be uncommon if I like, but it doesn’t mean that I lack qualities. I am a human being, why can’t you behave like one. Whatever you may conceive this world to be, better look before you leap because it might blind you on what virtue there is in this world. Whatever you do, the birds will still sing, the plants will still be green and yes tomorrow the sun will shine as ever.

Enjoy all your labors and aspirations and whether or not it is clear to you I am human with feeling and I do have a right to be loved. I am the child of the earth and it owes me a lot that you can’t offer so see you when life rejects you and death offer you a lift, to hell. So long, I wish very long. I wish forever and eternity could work hand in hand to prevent you from seeing me. Thanks, thank you for leaving and I accept your broken heart. Bad bye……………………………..

i right what i like.....following the footsteps

SA YOUTH’ROAD TO KNOW WHERE

It’s all about living fast and dying young. It’s all about joy and rocking from dust to dawn. It’s about looking at each other with the sense of inferiority and skepticism and travelling to the most famous place “nowhere”. South Africa is one of the most successful countries in the world with one of the most acceptable constitutions worldwide, yet is one of those countries with the most undisciplined youth. What’s the rush when you are only going to crush? You are probably wondering why I am asking this question. I form part of the youth myself, but I just can’t help to question. I can’t explain this feeling, I think about it everyday. It’s like being in a pool of sand, the more you wiggle, and the deeper you sink.

The government is trying its best to provide the scarce resources which can actually shape up our lives, yet we just throw it right back at their faces. Tomorrow when the morning comes we find someone to blame for our problems. The world is not a stage, drama or a novel. The bill of rights states it clearly that every right in South Africa has a responsibility. Whether or not it is clear to you, every second makes you grow older.

The government has provided plenty and yes we are doing zero. Our plates are full, yet we can’t find anything useful to do with the food. We must face the thunderstorm in order to see the rainbow. We must work hard and stop blaming someone for our badly cooked recipes. We have the world in our hands, we just have to choose where we want to place it. South Africa is full of opportunities and yes we are the children of South Africa. This is a multi racial country which is very united and full of opportunities at the same time. Let’s strike the iron while it is still hot.

We have the chance to be whoever we want to be, to be wherever we want to be. All we have to do is to have the determination of a mirror which never loses its ability to reflect. It seems as if we look up to our parents for everything. They have been here yesterday and today, I promise you, they are not going to be here tomorrow, this I know for sure.

Let’s grow up as quick as possible, believe me south Africa will grow with us. We have paralyzed our paradise, South Africa. We are the rainbow nation with bright colors that always reflect good things. Why can’t we live with that code? Is it so hard to make a future for yourself, a bright future to be precise? We can all do it; even the strongest chain has got a weak spot and no matter who you are and where you are you can find the weak spot.

I do not think we deserve this name (youth) cause we always point at the other direction. It seems as if few of our hearts still survive, just a few. Have the thirst for success and strive to be happy. The thirst has to be unquenchable. Let’s respect ourselves, our country, our parents, but most of all, lets respect each other and live our lives to the fullest not the foulest. Thank you